Friday, March 03, 2006

burn out

Occasionally, I get a raging case of job burn out. Today is such a day. Sometimes when my boss sees something he doesn't want to see from my research and raises a fuss, I just want to stomp my foot and slam the door behind me. Is that so wrong? I don't think so either.

I think I'm just not a financial researcher at heart. My job is a good job, great benefits, intelligent work, room to move and learn. All very good and well. And I know a lot of people would be delighted to die in this job. I am just not one of them. You know what I think gets me? I know I'm grossly underqualified for this job but I get to keep it because I put up a good front. I had no idea how important fronting was in the workplace, really, until I got here. Hi, I was a literature major. Hi, I don't like basic math. What the hell am I doing reading cash flow statements? When did my life begin revolving around balance sheets?

All I can say is that I hope for a few things:
1) I make it out of here unscathed
2) I make it out of here before they see through the front
3) I don't get fired and have to declare bankruptcy (that would blow)

This is not me (but it sort of is).


Elizabeth said...

Hurrah for blogging!

I just discovered yours after doing a random search for "autochthonous" on Blogger (oh yes, I am hideously procrastinatory too - though your law firm sounds cooler than mine, which doens't allow private internet use. Death to the hideousness of 6 minute billable blocks.)

This is fabulous! You are fabulous! Hurrah again!


Elizabeth said...

How did this comment escape me??

(This deserves a list. Oh lists, I love you)

1. A super fabulous lady who also works in a law firm with a fervent obsession with extravagant/opulent language? Sister, could you be my Aussie doppelganger? (and doesn't doppelganger without an umlaut seem so sad?)

2. You totally made my day.

3. SIX MINUTE BILLABLE BLOCKS?! What sort of madness is that? Why don't they just round you up occasionally to slap you around? What bitches! What nerve!

4. Okay, I'm off to read your blog.

5. Thanks again!! What a phenomenal comment!